Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Near Death Experience

When I was diagnosed with stage 3+ Hodgekins Lymphoma last January I was given a 50% chance of survival. I thought at the time that this was a lot better than the lottery and I beat it.
The process wasn't pleasant and the cure is a little like pouring boiling oil into wounds, but I am still here and sometimes that amazes me! I don't feel as if I were "near death", I never had that
spiritual or existential feeling. There was no "light at the end of the tunnel" and I felt very much alive during this whole process, not to say that it was enjoyable. For seven months I knew with the chemo-therapy that every morning would be a little worse than the previous. How hard would I be dragged through the mud today? Now I am healing and every day is better! That is a wonderful experience that most people don't get in life. I KNOW that today will be a great day! and I know that today will be better than yesterday. That is pretty cool.


  1. Cant be bad Jerry when you feel and know that one day is always better than the one before. It warms my heart to know this is the case for you

  2. Thank you Ralph! Now you know when I comment on your blog and often begin with "today will be a great day", I really mean it!

  3. Well with these positive attitudes how can I have a bad day either..