Sometimes my hands hurt worse than other times. They always hurt when I think about them, sort of like giving them that power to hurt. Today I awoke at 2AM and they were throbbing as if having spent a couple hours in a cement mixer. I can move my fingers but I can't make a fist, touching anything is like being electrocuted, but first you would have to stir a bucket full of cut glass and add salt, then you would get the idea. If I didn't have my rabbit fur lined gloves I think I would cry. I will order two more pairs today! They are dress gloves really and not designed to be worn 20 hours a day as I do. I wear them for welding and just about everything. They are soft and gentle and just prevent the over sensation on my hands. Sometimes I feel like just sitting, holding my hands in my lap and just doing nothing. I have tried this technique and it doesn't work for me. In fact it is about the worst thing I can do. When I concentrate on the pain, well, that is what I get.
What works for me is movement, like a basketball player continuing to play while injured. I will get up, take a bath as hot as I can stand it and go out to my studio and get lost in a project. Soon enough my focus is on that and I will forget about my hands entirely. It is a strange thing about my shop and work. When at my sickest I went eight months without working. I couldn't do it and the phone wasn't ringing anyway. Now that I am getting stronger the phone is ringing and I have plenty of work, doing three jobs at the same time.
I am sure there is some kind of mystery there.
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What works for me is movement, like a basketball player continuing to play while injured. I will get up, take a bath as hot as I can stand it and go out to my studio and get lost in a project. Soon enough my focus is on that and I will forget about my hands entirely. It is a strange thing about my shop and work. When at my sickest I went eight months without working. I couldn't do it and the phone wasn't ringing anyway. Now that I am getting stronger the phone is ringing and I have plenty of work, doing three jobs at the same time.
I am sure there is some kind of mystery there.
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I cannot even imagine hand pain like you have, but I do know lesser pain in hands, although to me it isn't lesser pain, and if I slack on taking my calcium tabs, my hands let me know big time. I cannot explain it, but I think we control a lot of our life by what we think and feel. I think the jobs come when we are ready to let them back into our life.
ReplyDeleteDoes that ever wear off after? I really hope it will. Your hands are so important in what you do.
ReplyDeleteJerry, I wish I could make them better. I can only send you my good gypsy vibes. Just a strong hope and wish that they get better.
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