Cancer of course limits what one can do and you learn not to make promises that you cannot keep, but it doesn't stop you from doing anything. So, I admit, my lists become shorter, but they are still there as an obligation to myself. If I think today only I can do three things, then I do them. Even if I don't feel like it.
Even if it makes me miserable. Even if it makes me sick. and, especially, even if I don't want to.
I make my list in the morning when I am at my best and I always make them for tomorrow when I am hoping for a better day. Tomorrow I will weld for one hour. Tomorrow I will paint one little painting, and tomorrow I will go out to breakfast. I will do this no matter what and I can do this crying and miserable or I can do this happy and cheerful, but do it I will. What happens in reality almost every single time is my one hour of welding will stretch to two or three and I will complete a project, get lost in time, forget about the pain in my hands and for awhile forget all about cancer. Painting is quiet time, no grinding and obnoxious fumes. My little painting can become big. They have a life of their own and become what they need to become, happy to be out of the tube. That hour will also stretch and I will find myself lost there too.
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