Friday, May 11, 2012

As Good As...

How does that expression go?  Not as good as I once was but as good as I was once?  That is me, had my check-up today and short of taking apart my atoms in a MRI I am still "Cancer-Free".  I am pretty sure the doctor only knows this because that is what I tell him;  it was not as though my cancer was warn on my sleeves,
pretty much all invisible inside stuff.  I have no symptoms, no swollen lymph glands and most of the chemo symptoms are gone too, except my forever, it seems neuropathy in my hands!  My price of survival and small one at that.  I keep a photo of me above my desk, taken a couple years ago at my worst.  The cancer never did that to me, it was all in the cure, a beast at best.
   I really can do almost anything now, anything from my younger, stronger days, just in shorter bursts but that can be good too!  I tilled my garden, normally a four hour job that took me two days and I just finished spreading a yard of mulch along the paths to designate walkways.  It will take another yard but that can wait until tomorrow.  Time seems to move in increments now like a watch that stops then jiggles ahead to catch up.
I have discovered that it will wait, all of that capturing and saving time was a lie.  There is no hurry.  Tomorrow will be here soon enough and so much that used to be important and cause me to rush just isn't there any more.
Not that I could hurry,  I am just learning to relax.
   I think that for Cancer People (we are NOT victims!) and maybe all retired people, someone should offer a class in "how to do nothing", there is a certain art in accomplishing nothing.  I am still amazed at how the day disappears and I didn't even get to make a "to do list"!  I am learning to not do that too.
   So my next check up isn't until September and I think my doctor and I chose that date because I could bring him some dried tomatoes!  YES!  It is going to be a good tomato season this year!

3 comments:

  1. CAn I say how happy that makes me?
    ok! It makes me very happy ! hugs Barbra Joan

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  2. Hope all is well with you Jerry i was thinking of you while on holiday I took a picture of a marvellous iron gate which I will send to you as soon as I can find it again.

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  3. Congratulations on another good check up. Chemo does zap your energy and that must be hard for you being in the construction business--not that the construction business has been all that fantastic these past years; it's been the pits. If you had to take time out to take care of yourself, this economic disaster couldn't have been better.

    I was the designer in our design/build company, my husband was the contractor. We specified a lot of wrought iron work over the years. I've been "retired" for two years, maybe three? Insurance jobs, pains in the butt all, filled my husband's days, but lately business is on the rise. Maybe prosperity will return and I'll get to work again--and you too?

    I'm on the third treatment for breast cancer. After chemo and radiation, they give you a pill to take for five years that makes your bones ache and deteriorate as it wipes estrogen out of your system. I've got a year and nine months to go on this thing. I am counting the hours. So I paint and blog and enjoy my new lease. Even though I've physically been slowed down a lot, my head hasn't.

    As a fellow cancer survivor (so far so good), an artist, a blogger and a gal who loves the construction business, I wish you well. We have a lot in common. I'll be checking in every now and then. Come visit me too. You can see how I'm filling my time. I ran into you at Conservatively Bohemian.

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