Five hours from now. I have my "One Year Check Up"!...and I still don't know what I am going to do!
I know my voodoo doctor will want to do more PET scans and CAT scans and I am still battling!
Should I? or should I not? They are a bother; there are a million other things I would rather do. I don't like doctors. I don't like hospitals. I don't like waiting rooms. I don't...like waiting!
And then there is the very big issue, what would I do if the cancer returned? Taking "chemo" the first time is always a risk. Maybe it will do this and maybe it will do that? They don't really know, everybody is different. Maybe it will cure you and maybe it won't? It will make you sick though and that is for sure!
Some people have had "chemo" twice or even more and I just don't know how they did it? Where did they get that kind of strength to enter the fire again?
I start my day with Vicodine and end it with Vicodine when I go to sleep at night. I have pretty bad neuropathy in my hands and a little in my feet. I have enough pain.
These tests cause cancer. They are the same as getting 400 x-rays in a single day. They are not fool-
proof, they don't see everything. They wouldn't come with a guarantee.
They are extremely expensive. I have great insurance but that is only by luck. It is still expensive whether
I pay for it or they do.
I have no symptoms. No lumps, no bumps, no chills, nothing.
This time a year ago my garden was a mess. I couldn't lift 20 pounds. I couldn't weld nor paint, couldn't make art of any kind. Couldn't. Couldn't do anything. Nothing.
Now I am strong again and my garden is weed free and perfect, all set up for "that perfect tomato"! I can weld and work and make art. I can eat again!
I just don't know. Four hours now and we shall see?
My art is HERE
I know my voodoo doctor will want to do more PET scans and CAT scans and I am still battling!
Should I? or should I not? They are a bother; there are a million other things I would rather do. I don't like doctors. I don't like hospitals. I don't like waiting rooms. I don't...like waiting!
And then there is the very big issue, what would I do if the cancer returned? Taking "chemo" the first time is always a risk. Maybe it will do this and maybe it will do that? They don't really know, everybody is different. Maybe it will cure you and maybe it won't? It will make you sick though and that is for sure!
Some people have had "chemo" twice or even more and I just don't know how they did it? Where did they get that kind of strength to enter the fire again?
I start my day with Vicodine and end it with Vicodine when I go to sleep at night. I have pretty bad neuropathy in my hands and a little in my feet. I have enough pain.
These tests cause cancer. They are the same as getting 400 x-rays in a single day. They are not fool-
proof, they don't see everything. They wouldn't come with a guarantee.
They are extremely expensive. I have great insurance but that is only by luck. It is still expensive whether
I pay for it or they do.
I have no symptoms. No lumps, no bumps, no chills, nothing.
This time a year ago my garden was a mess. I couldn't lift 20 pounds. I couldn't weld nor paint, couldn't make art of any kind. Couldn't. Couldn't do anything. Nothing.
Now I am strong again and my garden is weed free and perfect, all set up for "that perfect tomato"! I can weld and work and make art. I can eat again!
I just don't know. Four hours now and we shall see?
My art is HERE
Well, I hope you went. There is such a thing of doing fine, but not being fine. I think you get the strength because not to have it is to give up, and you're not one to give up. You're a tough one. I care about you. Let me know if you are okay.
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